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If I could go back in time...

If I could go back in time, I would prefer not to have known a man who had hurt me, I would prefer not to ever love a man who had very hurt me. Regret was always there at the end, if there was at beginning not regret it’s name. I think most women hope to got a good man and faithful in her life and can lead relationships to a more serious level, but in this time luck didn’t favor me. Maybe Allah was testing my patience so Allah took comfort that I have taken for 2 years with a man I love. I don’t know why Allah took it away from me, probably not all there were in this world I could have or I could have but finally I had to let it go. Or maybe Allah want to make me a better woman than before. If you asked me how it feels to be abandoned, then I will answer like we had one phone, we only had one phone we  always keeping our wholehearted even got angry when our phone was dropped by someone else, then our favorite phone was stolen by other people. I felt very disappointed. We are able to bought a new phone but before we bought a new phone that first we need some time to collected money in order to bought a new phone. Maybe like that felt hurt and disappointed when I illustrated. Perhaps you can imagine how it feel lost someone that you love. We were able to look for a new love but before we went to look for a new love it’s mean we should leaved our love, comfort and memories that have been etched in the previous story. And I think it is very difficult, even more difficult than we completed our writing assignments :D

For hearts that have been abandoned or let down, i hope you can be more patient and sincere. I believe that there was still a love that will make you laugh out loud from Allah.

For the heart that now had a nurturing love, I hope you didn’t felt disappointed, like me. And you are the lucky ones. 

And for me, the hurt is mostly a trial from Allah to be my better than previously. Love is the most beautiful of God's grace, and the past is the best lesson to reach the future. As bad as the past, there is still a future that we can make a gift of learning the past :)